Is This The Life I Wanted?

The Way I Felt

2011-10-09T23:13:00.002+08:00

For once I felt as in lost and didn't know where do I stand
I felt that there is;
No love
No care
No faith
No trust
No nothing at all
Is it fading away or am I just being fool by?

I kept telling myself;
What have I done to deserve all this?
The pain?
The tears?
How much longer do I have to endure all this?
It's just killing me softly

All I'm asking for is to be love, care and trust
Only god knows how much I feel in this heart

Deeply

2011-07-25T21:46:00.002+08:00

I don't know how,
I don't know why,
I don't know when
But I know that I have fallen deeply in love with you

Each and everyday,
My love for you grows stronger
You are the missing half I need
To make my life feel complete

It's hard to put into words
Of how much I really in love with you
It's just seem to be unreal
As you have stolen my heart

I will treasure this love
And cherish each and every moment
As I have fallen deeply with you
Love you till eternity

Always Loving You

2011-06-20T10:25:00.002+08:00

You make me dream of you when I'm asleep
You make me think of you first thing in morning I woke up
And my heart beat fast whenever I think of you
Cos my life is all about you

We may be far apart from each other
But in my heart you are always by my side
Everyday I start to fall in love all over again with you
Cos my heart only belong to one and that is you

Am here always loving you and thinking of you

Thinking of You [v.2]

2011-01-28T23:57:00.001+08:00

You make me think of you every hour, every minute and every second
My heart beat fast when ever I meet you
You make me fall in love with you all over again and again
Your smile just make my day wonderful
You say "I Love You" and it just melts my heart away
I love you more as days goes by
Here I am, thinking of you and loving you like I always do

This life I'm living

2010-12-03T16:04:00.000+08:00

Standing in front of mirror
Staring at my reflection
Thinking about my life
What I have been gone through
The up and down
The happiness and sadness
But in this life that I'm living
There is too much pain
Too much sadness
This sorrow in life
Is this the life I really wanted?
I just don't want this emotional life
How long must I suffer?
How long must I endure?
Dreams that are fading away
I'm losing hopes
I'm losing all my faith
And soon I'm losing my trust
I'm losing it all, losing it all
But all I know right now is that
I won't give up in life
In whatever I'm doing
Always keep on trying
And never lose hope

Here By Your Side

2010-12-02T14:46:00.000+08:00

When ever you feel down
When ever you need someone
When all hope has died
You know that I'm always here by your side

When ever you feel lost
When the world is on your shoulder
You got no one to run to and couldn't find your way
You know that I'm always here by your side

I may not be understand what you have been through
I may not know how much pain n sadness you have been through
And if you need a shoulder to cry on
You know that I'm always here by your side

I'm always here and stand by your side
With me around you wouldn't feel alone
Hold me tight and we go through it together
As I am always here by your side

Lush

2010-11-15T01:41:00.001+08:00

Tonight is the night I will make you mine
You know what I mean and what I want
I will show you that you are the one
I will show you what I can do

I want you to feel all over my body
And feel my warm skin against your skin
Feel this touch, feel the desire
And let's go beyond this

Your kiss blow my mind away
Your touch make my imagination run wild
Let our fantasy control over us
To the place where is unknown

Let me enter your world
And I will take away your pain and fear
I will make you feel like you are in heaven
And go beyond this physical

Feel this pain as a pleasure
As we touch our weakness point
Feel the sensual, feel the lush
I will hold you tight and never let you go

What Is True Love?

2010-11-03T02:14:00.010+08:00

What is true love?
Is it about hugs and kisses?
Is it about the words "I love you"?
Is it about beauty and looks?
Or is it about sex and lush?

What is true love really?
Love is how you feel it
Love is how you hold on to it
Love is how you understand it
And love is how you trust and respect it

Thinking of You

2010-10-29T00:01:00.003+08:00

Even since I know you
I keep thinking about you day and night
You bring me joy in everything I do
You make my day so wonderful when ever I think of you
You put clolours in my life, like a rainbow shining in the sky
Oh love, I just could not stop thinking of you

I Miss You

2010-09-05T20:06:00.000+08:00

I miss you
I miss looking at your warm smile
I miss your laughter and making me smile everyday
I miss the way you look into my eyes

I miss you
I miss the way we share our happiness
I miss your shoulder when i need a shoulder to lead on
I miss how much you love me so

I miss you
I miss the way you hug me
I miss the passion kiss we had
Words can't describe it how much I miss you

I miss you, miss you so bad

You Left Clueless

2010-08-07T23:17:00.006+08:00

Here I am thinking of what you said to me before
Leaving me clueless and confused
You told me you loved me but you left me all alone
You said you will give me the love I wanted but all I had is nothing
You were the reason I kept thinking about you in my life
You put a smile on my face every time I think about you
I been putting on hope on you
A hope that will last forever
And now you told me that you not into anyone yet
You just keep me hanging on it for no reason
You just keep playing with my heart making me like a fool
I'm clueless, I'm confused

The Masks I Wear

2010-07-18T17:44:00.000+08:00

My life hidden behind a mask
A mask that I wear everyday in my life
You may see I been putting on smile
You may though that I am happy with my life
But all that you see is a mask I wear

I hide my true feeling by wearing a mask
Behind all laughter were the pain
Behind all smiles were the tears
Behind the happiness were the sadness

I wear a thousand masks
Just to hide the bruises and scars
Just to hide my true emotional
So no one will understand and know

Without a mask I feel like I'm dying
I feel I am safe hiding behind a mask
Although my life in the darkness
It's hind me from the outer world

Touch Of Myself

2010-07-18T15:07:00.000+08:00

As I enter my world of fantasy
Going to places I can be out of control
Searching for the right moment
I begin to find myself flirting with the verge of obscene

I can't undefined the world I'm in
My imagination’s taking over me
I’m all in my skin and feel my own flesh
Touching all over my sweating body

With the touch of my hand
I can’t control what’s happening
I’m into myself in the most precious way
I find loving myself even more

I couldn't control it any longer
I'm at the edge of my fantasy
And I shut myself out from the world
I finally found that I’m already here

Trying To Move On

2010-07-01T23:08:00.014+08:00

Memories of our sweet love
Are still piercing through my mind
Will I ever forget you?
Will I ever erase you from my mind?

My body is living without a soul
I feel restless in life
All I have right now is nothing
Will my life ever be the same again without you?

Am I strong enough to go through this alone?
Will I ever put on a smile again?
I'm breathing but I feel like dying
I just can't take the pain no more

Here I am in an empty road
That leads me no where
I'm trying to forget you
So let me move on with my life

Our Love Has Died

2010-07-01T00:42:00.017+08:00

I am done, loving you
We have tried but the love has died
I guess it means goodbye
Sorry it had to be this way

No matter how much we tried
Nothing seems to changed
We are not fated to be together
As we live in a different kind of world

Neither of us is to blame
It may hurt our heart
But life still have to move on
It makes us understand life even better

Do not cry as there is no shoulder to lend on
I hope you find someone better than me
Someone who love you more
Someone who will give you happiness in life

As for me I will just keep on moving
Till I find what I want in life
Here we are, standing close
Saying our final goodbye

Here With Me

2010-06-27T10:40:00.010+08:00

As I woke up in the morning
Seeing your picture on my desk
A smell of your skin on the pillow
I miss you here by my side

Hearing your voice in the morning
Saying "Good morning dear"
And watching you smile
Making it a day to start with

As I lie back on bed, I could feel you besides me
The feel of your warm breath
Every time I close my eyes, all I see is you
You are everything that i need

All I have now was a shadow of you
That keep playing on my mind
My heart cant move on without you
I just want you here with me

Seeing You With Someone

2010-06-27T00:49:00.018+08:00

It's hurt me when seeing you with someone,
Even though I am still here loving you
I try to move on with my life
But nothing seems to change

I give you the love that you want
The love that I never give to no one before
The love that you never ask for
But still you choose the love he give

I keep telling myself why must you be with him
What good did he does to you?
Why can't you see how much you mean to me?
Loving you is all I need

I tried to erase you in my mind, but I could not
Seem so hard for me to forget you
Seem my heart could not move on
Guess it takes years to move on

Here I am still loving you
Still missing you
And at the same time thinking of you every day and night
Although my heart hurts seeing you love with someone else